caelei wrote:Pavelle opened her mouth to say she was fine, her eyes landing on Venison again... and this time she took in the details. Crutch, collar, and mice? Surprised, and also somewhat worried by the first, she tried to make eye-contact to question him... and was shocked again. His eyes were bright, bright green? Had they been that shade of green before? Had they even been green at all before? He had bad eyesight, maybe Sara had bought him contacts? Could pets even get contacts? Even if there were pet contacts and Venison agreed to wear them... she couldn't imagine him wearing any that changed his eye color to something so... eccentric. Pavelle could feel the questions building up in Rav, as well, but before either of them could ask... Lucky barged forward, dropped to a knee in front of her bed, and started howling about something...
Venison might have not been able to see all that well, but he could tell that Pavelle was staring straight into his eyes.
'Why is she staring right at me? Is she gazing right at my eyes? Or is she looking at what I'm wearing...?' And it was making him nervous. He began to blush slightly, and avert his gaze, when Lucky began to freak out about something. Venison grimaced as he slowly attempted to lean away from Lucky, the crutch slightly impeding him.
Kalvin wrote:Lucky tries to hold his words by biting his lips, but seeing Pavelle in such a condition strains on his conscience until he finally breaks down, pushing his way to the front almost interrupting Venison and taking a knee next to the side of the bed. "Oh my god! I am so sorry! I can't help but feel I could have prevented this." His words start to ring in on him as he puts his head against the sheet. "I understand if you hate me for running away yesterday. Just please tell me the truth. Do you hate me or not?" Hardly giving any time for Pavelle to answer he keeps going. "I knew it! You're speechless! You may as well have admitted it there!" He buries his head in his hands hyperventilating a little. It is apparent that Lucky doesn't do well with guilt.
"Err...you realize, Lucky, that that entire thing was more or less a fiasco of the greatest degree which got absolutely nobody anywhere in furthering their own personal goals or safety? Two of our friends got out, but so did a ton of ferals and strays. I'd suspect most went to the city, or fled to the woods. And
then it resulted," Venison motioned with his free hand to Pavelle and Rav, "With two of our friends being incarcerated ANYway. Back at square one with more problems...You made the correct choice ditching."
caelei wrote:"Okay. Firstly. What happened to you, Ven? You're hurt? I don't remember... anything happening?" Then she looked at Felix. "And what happened to you? Why are you a cat?" And then she eyed Wynn, who was standing unobtrusively in the corner. "And, if you don't mind me asking, who are you exactly?"
"Felix is all prettied up," Venison jabbed, "because he doesn't want to get any unnecessary attention, like myself. And that there in the corner is a friend of Ceir's, I think. As for me...Eh, well...remember that entire feral pack problem? Remember how...I reacted when we found Magnus? I wasn't too happy, recall. Well...one of the ferals that got out was that same cat that I kicked face first into a tree. He wasn't all that thrilled to see me. Kicked his ***, of course, but he got one good sucker punch in, with me getting slashed upside the leg. I could have just ran, but...Historically, bad **** happens when I can't keep a handle on my emotions. Why would I have made such a
stupid decision to even go in the first place and att-" Venison cut himself off mid-sentence, realizing what he was almost about to say.
'...sign a death warrant, why don't you...' He thought to himself. "The crutch and collars are more to keep people from bugging me. And Ceir asked me to hold the two fuzzballs. Though I kinda like them both, admittedly."
Venison looked upwards and sighed. "I still find it amazing that people still care for me, people I hardly even
know. Not only that, they actually refuse my requests to
not help me. And then they don't even care that I'm curt about refusing help. I can't tell if I should be annoyed or what." He shot a smirk to Ceir and Rav in particular. "Anyway, after the entire thing...that...happened, I more or less passed out. It's just a small cut, but...it's really sore. I can't walk on it. Might take a week or two to heal. I'm out of money, I can't get my own food, I lost control of my emotions. I'm hovering somewhere around utterly useless with absolutely no utility. Unless I were to be eaten by other dogs, if I were still a stray in the city..." Venison shook out his head. "Still. As long as I'm alive, I'm not about to be a burden. That's just one of my things, you realize. Once I'm sure that you two are good to go, and won't suffer because of what I did, I'll be off so that I don't cause any more trouble. I think I've caused more than enough. Maybe a couple more days around here...so that...I'm sure you two are okay...that's why I came here to see you, after all...maybe get you out of here, if I needed to..." Venison trailed off, his voice weak and shaky.
This was odd. Normally this choice was easy. Automatic. Simple. Quick. Decisive.
So why was he explaining? Why was he dragging this out?
Why was that strange remorse feeling returning?
He tried to think of something else, his eyes trailing around the room. Anything that would change the subject... "Hey...where did Magnus go?"